2nd August 2006

Panorama tonight

When I got home this evening, I planned to blog something about conversations I used to have with an old friend, along with a little humour. I've just watched the Panaorama programme graphically showing the violent thugs that went to Germany this summer during the world cup. It was sickening to watch. It made me very angry. In fact I'd say my anger was scary because I found myself imagining all the things I'd like to do to those thugs. Some of them had their children on their shoulders whilst shout and taunting abuse. I felt my anger rise watching this and.... to a certain extent, there in lies the problem. As stated in a previous blog, it proved to me how vulnerable I am to feeling this anger and wanting revenge. I feel ashamed to have had these feelings... I guess I'm back to referring to awareness again.

One of the ex. football hooligans interviewed spoke with honesty that the fear and agressison was an addiction, much the same as an alcoholic, drug addict etc... That, at least added some opportunity for understanding. Its got me now, to thinking about what influences people to want to fight in the way they do, using football as an excuse to display their aggression. Maybe its as a result of violence, abuse and aggression in their lives and they have nowhere safe to "take" that.
In conclusion, this programme has temproarily affected me this evening. Although I was angry about it, it was compulsive viewing. I guess, like many issues, I want to try to understand why all this happens. I've lost my sense of humour for the moment. It'll come back later, I know. Perhaps then I might write the stuff about words and Alitteration that I intended to blog tonight.
Did anyone else see this prog. tonight? If so, what sort of feelings did it generate in you?