originally posted 6th June 2006 - Moods

mood swings and stuff........

I had a touch of the blues yesterday. A lot of negative thoughts seemed to be flowing through my mind and I found myself being very self critical and self conscious. Its something I'm much more aware of these days and I knew I needed to do something about it instead of over analysing. Moods have been good in the last year compared to previous few years which were peppered with big depressive episodes and a couple of breakdowns.
I decided to run into work this morning (roughly 4 miles) to get the endorphins whizzing round my brain. I ran home tonight as well and it seems to have done the trick. I got some really big buzz's when I first started running last year. I've not managed to replicate it in the same way so far this year having restarted running this spring, but then I've not pushed it so hard so far. There is a kind of addictive element to running which I think ties in with me. I suspect I have a bit of an addictive personality. At least running is a little bit more of a healthy pursuit... still, I'll try to make sure I don't over do it....... comes down to setting too high standards again.

Its my turn to run an activity for the clients at work tommorow. Not surprisingly, it will be fitness training (running ) followed by football. Depending on the enthusiasm, I might just keep it to football.... maybe just a short run for a warm up. There is a temptation to run into work again tomorrow, but I think I'll take it easy and drive in instead.